Breakfast of Champions

I am so alone. I’m reaching out as I walk into the darkness of an unknown future, grabbing...

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:23:05 -0700

I am so alone.

I’m reaching out as I walk into the darkness of an unknown future, grabbing at the air in hopes that there will be something for me to hold onto. Someone waiting for me to help guide me along the way.

I am so alone- surrounded by my peers; people who are just as clueless and lost as I am. Few hold a flashlight as they brave through the darkness. I used to have a flashlight. The batteries died a couple of years ago.

My relationships are crumbling. My academics abrasively took priority above all other aspects of my life: friends, sports, mental wellness, music. School strangles me, sucking the life out of my helpless body as my support system falls out from under me.

I have no family.

I feel like an accessory with my family. It feels like they have given up on me; my school kept me away from them and now they punish me by understanding how important school is and keeping their distance as I stumble and fall through semesters- new obstacles grabbing my ankles as I head deeper into darkness. Yet they are still close enough that I can feel their guilt trips and wonder about my well-being. I just want my mom to be back

My mom is not here. She cannot hug me and I cannot hear her voice. I miss her so much. I miss the relationship we used to have before school separated us. Growing apart from my mom has been the most painful thing I have experienced yet.

I need someone that I can trust fully- someone who I know I can open up to and speak without consequence. Someone who will hold their arms open to me and accept my tears and my struggles.

My mind is gone. My sanity is with it. My mental stability teeters one way or another depending on the day of the week. I am spent emotionally. My thoughts begin to numb, my brain deflects ideas and rational thought. I am left with a puddle of burning emotions in my cranial cavity.

My heart opens for my friends. Their voices in the darkness help me take more steps. I can hear their words of encouragement and I can feel their warmth when they are near. They help me stay on my feet- giving me the fuel to not fall to my knees in defeat and accept the darkness as home. It seems as though they shed a little bit of light onto my current state, creating a space for me to feel happiness and love. I am forever grateful for my friends.

Tears no longer flow. My sadness is replaced by anger and frustration. Why am I alone? I never thought it would be like this. I never expected to become so timid and hesitant as I travel through the darkness, heading into my future like a mouse. I had been raised to bound through the unknown times, I had been surrounded by vast amounts of love and support. Now I feel cold and shallow. So. Fucking. Alone.

Moving from this place will relieve an incredible amount of negativity. Diving back into my hobbies will fill me with a sense of purpose once more. Once I am a part of a team I can fulfill my social needs as a human again and begin to net my support group once more. Creating will allow my mind to open, my feelings can pour out of my hands. I will have control again. I will be doing everything I love again.

c2ndy2c1d: enenkaydoodles: So I’m not a huge shipper, but I...

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:26:07 -0700

c2ndy2c1d:

enenkaydoodles:

So I’m not a huge shipper, but I absolutely love c2ndy2c1d’s art and comics. They have a super charming and fun style and DANG they get shit done fast.

I’ve been wanting to draw this dude for a long time now, and I finally had a bit of free time to do so. Nat Kedd Goldberg AKA: The Ship Cap’m. Also a lot of this is just shamelessly stuff I enjoy like boys wearing glasses and sweater vests. Forgive me. I have a weakness.

Hope you dig!

OH GAWD I”M GONNA

I”M GONNA

I
aof’

aweoifWANT

BUTTS

I love Nat so much it hurts.

INSPIRED BY THIS POST (don’t remove credit) OMG I’M LAUGHING...

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:25:01 -0700

INSPIRED BY THIS POST (don’t remove credit)

OMG I’M LAUGHING SO HARD

protojammed: He doesn’t look like he’s going to be gentle at...

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:24:44 -0700

protojammed:

He doesn’t look like he’s going to be gentle at all

Frogman....

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:22:37 -0700

i c u….

Photo

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:22:12 -0700

Photo

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:21:54 -0700

zillybooradley: I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR AGES

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:21:41 -0700

zillybooradley:

I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR AGES

bigfatcherrybomb: feelings-princess: saffronmakesthings: Some...

Tue, 21 May 2013 02:30:09 -0700

bigfatcherrybomb:

feelings-princess:

saffronmakesthings:

Some super blurry phone photos of the finished jackets I made for my project. ♥

psst hilary i think i found a project we need to do together

more vest-spiration!! ❤

Photo

Mon, 20 May 2013 21:26:42 -0700

unfamiliargroundsquirrel: #what do you know about fun

Mon, 20 May 2013 21:26:39 -0700

unfamiliargroundsquirrel:

#what do you know about fun

Photo

Mon, 20 May 2013 20:24:11 -0700

Power face! Finals blow!

Mon, 20 May 2013 16:26:18 -0700

Power face! Finals blow!

Shit.

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:28:27 -0700

So, thank god I took a break from finals stress yesterday and got some sleep because I won’t be sleeping again until tomorrow night.

Fuck everything.

I have two essays to complete, one due tomorrow the other due two days ago, and a fucking art final that i need to study for and memorize fucking UGH.

I JUST.

STOP.

strangetimesarecoming: Her hair is amazing..

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:27:14 -0700

strangetimesarecoming:

Her hair is amazing..

strangetimesarecoming: Myself right before going on stage to...

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:27:10 -0700

strangetimesarecoming:

Myself right before going on stage to play a show..

Dear Yahoo,

Mon, 20 May 2013 09:19:33 -0700

thefrogman:

First, I would like to welcome you to this wonderful tumblr community. Most of us just sign up for free, but I guess paying a billion dollars works too.

A lot of us are apprehensive about your presence in our space. I’m afraid we don’t like change very much. Whenever something big happens, we curse the gods and make graphics and gifs displaying our dislike of said change.

This will pass in a few weeks once we start arguing over a Sherlock/Supernatural slashfic.

We are aware of some mistakes you’ve made in the past. You changed the spirit of flickr to the dislike of many. You bought geocities and shut it down. Because of that, I don’t have access to my supercool Golden Girls fanfiction site. There was one story in which they were all lesbians and they ended up having simultaneous intercourse with an octopus which was easily facilitated due to it having eight tentacles. This tome of inter-species romance was surrounded by some amazing unicorn glitter gifs and a midi file playing Barry Whites’ Can’t Get Enough of Your Love, Babe.

But that’s gone now.

And for a long time I blamed you.

I don’t think you are a sign of bad tidings though. You have your strengths. My dad is very fond of your search engine. He is always successful at finding recipes on how to grill various meats. I think he researched a riding lawn mower using your well indexed results. Sometimes you put videos of dogs doing funny things on your front page and it makes him giggle. If you can do all that for my beloved father, then maybe you can be a positive force in this tumblr community that I love.

A few tips:

Enjoy Doctor Who, but avoid talking about the whole Moffat thing. You’ll just get into fights and become sad.

Everything is better with a cat gif. Be sure to save a bunch to a reaction folder on your hard drive. Since you have a a decent amount of funds, you might even consider opening a cat gif division of Yahoo. Buy sixty cats, put them in a room with a bunch of boxes, film them, make gifs… profit.

Tag your spoilers. Seriously.

When you put images in a text post, make sure not to do the ones that end up looking like polaroids.

And my final tip. Remember that first and foremost, tumblr is a community. Respect that community and you will do fine.

Regards,

The Frogman

lithiumvision: xdesecrate-thru-purityx: takemysoulaway333: sra...

Mon, 20 May 2013 09:18:09 -0700

lithiumvision:

xdesecrate-thru-purityx:

takemysoulaway333:

sra-foreveralone:

I swear this is the last one

Jesus…

Man, I needed that laugh

omg i just had to

gastrogirl: slutty cheesecake bars.

Mon, 20 May 2013 09:17:11 -0700

gastrogirl:

slutty cheesecake bars.

kisskicker: Prince Gumball’s path to the throne was brutal....

Mon, 20 May 2013 09:16:59 -0700

kisskicker:

Prince Gumball’s path to the throne was brutal. Fionna wasn’t around during the Sugar Wars; Gumball distracts her by acting super bland and wearing disco pants.

Marshall Lee knows the truth, but as Chaotic Neutral, he just can’t bring himself to give a shit.